Slacker!

I am such a slacker. I got a kid and a job and completely neglected good therapy! What's up with that?

Well, I suppose a little rundown is in order. Addison is 10 1/2 months old! {OMG, time flies!} She loves the lady that keeps her at the daycare, but I don't love her helper. She has had a constant ear infection in her right ear for a while now and I am terrified that she is gonna have to have tubes! :( I am not breastfeeding anymore :( but that is ok {now}, I am just glad I did it in the first place! 

I did not finish the X-Factor Work out, I did do 7 weeks though and Weight Watchers. So far I have lost a total of 18.6lbs! :) Let me just say that I LOVE WW! It's so EASY and it WORKS! I just need to get back on the ball! I am signing up for a couple 5k races the Aubrae Gunderson Memorial and Hot Chocolate 15k/5k. So excited!

Addison is going to be a Mummy tomorrow! Her costume is homemade by yours truly! It was super easy and cheap! I bought a white onsie {three really- they came in a pack- but its good to have a backup}, some white stockings, a cream headband, cream tulle, and "Freaky Fabric" from Wal-Mart. The necklace was an afterthought {beads were given to me} and the headband is not pictured. I made the tutu with the tulle and pieces of Freaky Fabric. Tea-dyed the onsie and stockings. Tacked the Freaky Fabric to the onsie, and voila! I cannot wait to see her in it! :) I have gotten a lot of compliments, which makes me feel better about not going out and buying a costume. I will post a pic of the beautiful mummy tomorrow! 

Happy Tuesday! 

Alive and well!

It has been months since I have gotten on this thing! I do have to say that I miss it very much! Addison is growing so much! She is now seven months old, saying a few words, crawling and pulling up! I did get a job at a daycare, which she also attends. Recently I have started a workout routine. Its the eight week program X-Factor:ST by Weider. Currently I am on my last day of week two. :) I am proud of myself for continuing to do this where as I haven't other times. I know now that I have more of a reason to than anything! I don't want Addison to grow up and be like me, overweight to the point of obesity. I want her to grow up seeing a mom who is fit and healthy. I am also going to start Weight Watchers, today! :)

Just so everyone knows I will try to post at the very least weekly updates on my progress! My starting point was 175lbs (BMI of 34.2). My goal right now is to lose a lb a week for ten weeks. My ultimate goal is to lose almost fifty lbs in order to have a healthy BMI. I am not going to worry about "getting skinny" or getting my old figure back, I just want to be healthy so my daughter will grow up and be healthy also. The exercise part is the easy part! Changing my eating habits is gonna be the hard part, but I can do it! I have a great support system and I know I am gonna need them! :) Care to join me on my journey to healthy living?

* Please note that I am not endorsed or compensated by Weider or Weight Watchers. It is simply the regimes I have chosen for myself. :)

Sorta Nervous

Tommy is going to talk to the recruiter about re-enlisting. I am excited for him and at the same time I am a little nervous. Nothing is certain but today could mark a huge change in our lives. It'll be a good change, just hard. But there wasn't ever anything worth working for that wasn't hard. Gosh, I just can't stand it hardly anymore. I am going to go get him and Addison up and we are going to get started with our day. Wish us luck. 

Happy Wednesday!

About Time

Ok, so I really need to get on here more! I miss blogging! 

This Friday Addison will be 3 months old! OMG time flies by! She is trying so hard to laugh. She'll coo and sometimes squeal but hasn't quite got the laughing part down yet. It's still cute! 

Friday Tommy and I are going out on a date for the first time in forever! I am kinda excited, but I have NO clue what to wear. Its just dinner and a movie- not even a romantic one (Act of Valor) so I wont need anything too dressy but it would be nice to dress up a little for a change. :)

I applied for a few jobs in the school system yesterday. So obviously I am thinking of  going back to work. I want to for a few reasons. The main one being I want to get the heck out of my grandmother's house. I love her to death but I cannot stand to live here much longer. Living with anyone is hard and some people are much harder to live with than others. I have almost considered moving out of state if we could find jobs but at the same time I don't want to move Addison away from family that loves her unless there is no other choice.

Tommy said the other day that he has considered going back into the military but I don't think he means it. He feels so shafted from the way they did him last time I can't really blame him. At the same time I think that could possibly be one of the best decisions we could make. Idk. I don't want to make a decision now that we will regret in the future because we are so anxious to get our own place. 

I have worked out for the past two days (hard) and it feels great. I already feel like I have more energy and more motivation. :) Its days like today though that make it hard. Days where I don't have anyone I trust to watch Addison for me. I'll find a way though. I am not going to stop because I need to do this for me and for her. I need to live a healthier lifestyle so she will when she is older. 

Time to get off here but I will return! :)

Happy Wednesday! 

Time for Change

Looking through and  posting photos today and I realize its time to change the way I do things before its too late. I am already on the verge of  becoming the person I never wanted to be. Lazy and obese, not just fat but obese. I have got to change the way I live my life before I become another statistic. To ensure things change I am going to start an accountability group with specific goals, weekly and daily goals. Geez I have a LOT of work to do! If you have any suggestions please let me know!

Happy Monday!

2 Months 2 Days Ago

Yep, my little girl was 2 months old 2 days ago! Omg! Time goes by so fast! Poor thing had to get her shots yesterday too. :( She cried so hard and loud, Tommy and I both cried too. She didn't really feel too good afterwards and who could blame her? She has been really sleepy today too. :( I wish there was a way for me to make her feel better. We ended up staying at my mom's last night. Oops. Oh well, I was gonna have to come back over here anyway. So I have a baby shower to go to next weekend and I'm not entirely sure what to get her. There is so much that is useful when you have a newborn that I honestly cannot decide. . . . I think I'm going to give her a fully equipped diaper bag. One that comes with a changing pad and I'll put diapers, wipes and other essentials in it. :) Then again I know that is a popular choice when it comes to baby showers to maybe a 'goody bag' with Gripe Water and gas drops and stuff in it. :) What do you think???

Friday Confessional

I confess . . .

Money sucks. 

It causes problems between people when there is no need.

Problems suck too. 

I confess . . .

I have no clue what to do for Tommy this Valentine's Day.

He will be working.

Any ideas?

I confess . . .

He told me last night he wanted to take me out this weekend because he is working.

But that was after we got into an argument.

I don't think he wants to anymore.

I confess . . . 

I have about 4 weeks of school work to catch up on by Sunday.

Its not my fault I didn't have my book.

So I will be spending most of my days nose deep in Literature.

I confess . . . 

I don't need my Spanish book.

I do just fine without it.

I needed the website code though so I had to get it.

I confess . . .

I have strep throat.

The doctor told me not to kiss Addison.

That is seriously the HARDEST thing I have ever had to do in my LIFE. 

I confess . . .

There is so much I need to be getting done.

I just don't feel like it.

Is that bad?

I confess . . .

Getting ready for the Atlanta Race for the Cure again.

My mom and I are excited.

I have a lot of conditioning to do before then.

I hope everyone has a happy Friday and great weekend. 

Laundry . . .

is most definitely on the top of my list today! Addison has done everything but pee on me (so far) today. She has spit up on almost all of her clothes in the past two days and even managed to come out of the diaper once. :( Having a limited amount of clothes is the only thing I don't like about staying at my mom's. Its a really small thing to complain about, I have to do laundry anyway I just wanted to wait until tomorrow and get it all done in one whack. She apparently has other plans for me. Lol. 

I am so proud of myself! I walked a mile last night and have done half a mile today. I plan on going and doing the other half later with some company (or at least someone to watch Addison for a little bit). Now that I have been cleared by my doctor I am ready to get back into shape and get ready for the Susan G. Komen Atlanta Race for the Cure. My mom and I did it last year for Mother's Day and had a blast. I believe we are going to make it a tradition. I am hoping that we can beat our time from last year, so I have to get started. I'm honestly excited. I couldn't wait to start exercising again. I'm weird I know. :)

Its hard to believe its been six weeks. It goes by so fast. And she has grown so much. She went from this:

To this in just 3 weeks. 

And this in just 3 more.

What am I gonna do?

Oh well, she is getting hungry so I gotta go! 

Happy Saturday! 

Friday Confessional

I confess . . . 

I love being a mom!

It is the best feeling in the world!

My little girl's gummy grin always makes my day!

I confess . . .

Its because of her that we are looking to find somewhere else to live.

I am not comfortable with the way things are going at my house right now.

I should  be able to be comfortable in my own home.

I confess . . .

I am having more issues with my grandmother by the day.

I thought we had everything worked out.

Apparently I was wrong.

I confess . . . 

Tommy and I have been staying at my mom's. 

Sleeping on the couches.

Just so we don't have to put up with my grandmother and her creepy boyfriend. 

I confess . . .

I don't mind her having a boyfriend.

I just don't like this guy.

He is creepy and rude. 

I confess . . .

It worries me that she is bringing this man into our home because . . .

She has only known him for 3 months and

She met him off the internet. 

I confess . . .

I'll be friends with someone online

But I will not go out and meet them, and def won't take them to my house!

They could be a pedophile or psycho! 

I confess . . .

I am shocked she hasn't thought of this.

She has worked in law enforcement for over 20 years.

Kinda makes you wonder huh?

I confess . . .

I really don't know whats up with her lately.

She is being rude and demanding.

She is def not the woman she once was.

I confess . . .

I don't mind doing the cleaning and cooking around the house.

I do however mind being demanded to do such on her schedule.

I am a mom and a student. My daughter comes first, then my studies, then the rest of the stuff.

I confess . . .

I have a feeling when we leave its gonna be ugly.

We stayed because she asked us to.

But when she know how that guy makes me feel and she is still willing to bring him into my home (with myself and my newborn daughter, without Tommy) its crossing the line.

I confess . . .

I feel like she has chosen this guy over family.

The sad thing?

I'm not the only one who thinks that.

I confess . . . 

We are all shocked at her actions.

She is acting like a careless teenager with raging hormones.

Not a responsible great-grandmother who had a hysterectomy 40 years ago.

I confess . . .

My younger sister is more responsible than my grandmother.

It makes us all uncomfortable.

My mom is pissed at my grandmother for acting this way- so am I.

I confess . . .

I thought you were supposed to get wiser with age.

Not dumber. 

Apparently I was wrong. 

I confess . . .

It feels good to be blogging again.

I really should take time each day to write a little something on here.

Even if its just talking about Addison.

Hope every one has a Happy Friday! 

Courageous

That movie was amazing! Being a new mom it really hit me (even though it was made for dads)!

I'd like for Tommy (and myself) to sigh the Resolution! It would be a wonderful thing to have in our home! 

These guys are just amazing! They make the best movies with some of the best story lines! I'd love to go to their church just once! If it were possible (and I liked the church enough) I'd even consider moving down there! I really think those guys have a real good handle on life and what it means to serve God!

Addison is doing so well! She makes me smile like nothing else! Breastfeeding has been a wonderful experience! I encourage every woman to try it! Its a wonderful feeling knowing you are giving your child the nutrients they need! It also connects us on a whole new level! 

Going for my 6 week post-partum checkup Tuesday. I'm getting the Mirena again. I'm kinda excited, I guess thats the word. Lol. No more kiddos for five years, unless we decide otherwise. 

How are things with everyone else?

One Month

Today my baby girl is one month! Its a happy and sad day! I am excited to watch her grow but at the same time I am sad that the time has gone by so fast! 

Last night she slept for almost the entire night! She is holding her head up on her own so well! She is such a great baby! I love her so much! 

I have so many ideas for when she gets a little older! Crafts and things and birthday ideas! Its all so exciting! 

I'm doing pretty good too. I am down to less than 10 lbs of my pre-pregnancy weight. I am not really sure how much I weighed but I know around and I am definitely with in 10lbs of that. :) I am hoping to start doing some sort of exercise soon (still waiting on doctor approval). I am totally determined to get into shape and eat better now that she is here so I can be the best role model I can be!

I am doing the Susan G. Komen Race for the Cure again this year! I think my mom and I are going to make a tradition out of it! (I'd love that because its always the day before Mother's Day!) I'd like to take Addison too but I think she may be too small this year. We'll have to see. I really need to start my fundraising! 

Had a pretty good weekend here at my mom's being away from my grandmother and her creepy boyfriend. I got to go shopping and spend some time with my brother and sisters, it was totally worth it. I am dreading going home to my dogs though. I feel guilty we had to leave them but my mom's dog and ours just don't get along. I don't even want to think about how things would turn out with my sister's dog, he hasn't met mine yet. 

We need to make a trip to the grocery store too. Fun- not! I hate grocery shopping! But its gotta be done. 

Guess I'm gonna get started with my day. Finally lol.

Long Overdue Update

So I haven't disappeared, I have just been really busy lately. I did go in for my induction on the 14 of December. However, due to complications I had to have a c-section. Addison was born on the 16 of December. She is the most perfect thing ever! I love her so much! Everything is great now, I am getting the hang of being a mom and I am healing well. Breastfeeding is going great for the both of us! :) I am super happy because I was worried that I wouldn't be able to for one reason or another. I am continuing my online classes, hopefully I won't be too over loaded. I am doing my best to get a schedule going, so far its not really working but I will continue to try. :) 

Happy Wednesday!